Saturday, October 20, 2007
One More Time, One More Chance
This song is called One More Time, One More Chance by Yamazaki Masayoshi.He wrote it himself,composed it himself too.This song was sung in the anime movie called Byousoku 5 Centimeter.This movie is really very bitter sweet and it's worth watching.If you love the movie The Place Promised In Our Early Days & Voices Of A Distant Star,you would surely enjoy this as it is by thesame producer!It's a short chain of stoies about the distances between a boy named Takaki and a girl,Akari.This video is exactly the scene from the movie...Well enjoy it!
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http://5cm.yahoo.co.jp
Nite!
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Black Magic
Having holiday now!But still have to study lar....Exams are coming already.Anyway,last Sunday night,my entire family went to eat steamboat at this restaurant called Uncle Duck...(funny name eh?)We had tonnes of fun.My family on my mother's side are usually more talkative and the atmosphere is much more cozier than my father's side.There's too much family politics there,but let's not go there for now.
As I was saying we had a lot of fun and Ivan started asking my cousin brother,Dickson an IQ question.Ivan tortured him since the moment dinner started and he still can't solve it!hahahaha...then I asked them another IQ question...It's called Black Magic.I learnt it in chruch,so Ed also knows.It started with only my three cousins n Ivan guessing but then after a while I noticed everybody turned their attention to me.My aunt Yin Peng also joined then everybody.As we were leaving,we all went to the toilet and when I came out Dickson ran up to me complaining, "Carmen je je!Your mother is making me to tell her the answer!"At that point everybody burst out in laughter,haiyooo I least expect my mom to join in as well.
My Aunt Yin Peng practically held on to me and wouldn't let me leave until she gets it...My family is like that...it might seem lame but I love it!It's just so much fun to be able to joke about like that.n oh yea....they still bug me for the answer till now....haizz...they just can't detect the pattern.hehe...has anyone played it yet?I asked my class mates already and it was fun torturing them!i'm evil eh?it took Sam n Debbie a little bit more time to get it though it only took Andy 10 minuts to get it.As for shivani and jonathan....they still dun get it!Is it that hard????
As I was saying we had a lot of fun and Ivan started asking my cousin brother,Dickson an IQ question.Ivan tortured him since the moment dinner started and he still can't solve it!hahahaha...then I asked them another IQ question...It's called Black Magic.I learnt it in chruch,so Ed also knows.It started with only my three cousins n Ivan guessing but then after a while I noticed everybody turned their attention to me.My aunt Yin Peng also joined then everybody.As we were leaving,we all went to the toilet and when I came out Dickson ran up to me complaining, "Carmen je je!Your mother is making me to tell her the answer!"At that point everybody burst out in laughter,haiyooo I least expect my mom to join in as well.
My Aunt Yin Peng practically held on to me and wouldn't let me leave until she gets it...My family is like that...it might seem lame but I love it!It's just so much fun to be able to joke about like that.n oh yea....they still bug me for the answer till now....haizz...they just can't detect the pattern.hehe...has anyone played it yet?I asked my class mates already and it was fun torturing them!i'm evil eh?it took Sam n Debbie a little bit more time to get it though it only took Andy 10 minuts to get it.As for shivani and jonathan....they still dun get it!Is it that hard????
Saturday, October 6, 2007
Mom talked about it over breakfast and I'm so glad there was only me and Ivan there...I always feel this topic is never really a good topic to discuss with my family....Mom asked me what do I wanna do after SPM,she asked me if I was sure of going into psychology,but I often feel reluctant to answer her.Not that my parents are the type that wants me to go into specific fields or anything,I think I'm one those who are really lucky cause my parents allows me to choose whatever I want to do..."as long as it makes you happy and you would enjoy studying it.."that's what they always tell me and my brothers.
It's not that it's a taboo subject but I always find it very heart aching every time we talk about this and yea....I can't help crying when this topic arouses.Mom told me a lot about Edmund before he decided to go for law,my mom really wanted me to go for form 6 because she strongly believes that form 6 is a period where one would grow to be more mature and by that time one would be ready to chose what to study in uni or college,but the only problem is she knows and I know very well that I won't be able to do form 6 cause I'm weak in science subjects and if I go into arts for form 6 it would be a waste of time cause it's in BM.I know mom is not trying to discourage me or anything but she needs to ask me to make me feel more reassured of my choice.
Going to HELP to study psychology is the best place possible but the money is one problem and the other is my mom is afraid I would get bad influence or socially affected.I can't say it's not true...she's afraid that I'm not ready enough for college life and the next thing is she's worried about me not being able to fully focus.She asked me am I ready for that and the problems that she mentioned....I just answered that I won't be able to promise anything.I was busy tearing up.....but poor Ivan sat there,pulling tissues out from the tissue box one after another for me.My family has this trait where anyone of us cries the other would cry as well....too emotional lar all of us.
I want to go into HELP because they have te best psychology program but most probably with my dad's retirement coming up next year...that doesn't seem like an option anymore.other than HELP...the next one that offers quite a good program is UCSI.Aaarrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so ma fan lar!my head is so confused and now I'm starting to question myself...suddenly I seem so lost and I feel frustrated thinking about what is right or wrong for me. Other than going for psychology I don't know what else I can go for.I suddenly feel like my talent or whatever ability I have is that limited...
Mom knows that I'm aching and feeling very lost so she just told me to focus now and just do my best in SPM first.I know....but there's too much going through my head now and jia rong was just commentting yesterday that I have a lot of white hair because I think to much and I thought it was a random joke...guess not.
God...I'm confused,I'm lost and I'm too tired to keep questioning myself.Save ME!!!!
It's not that it's a taboo subject but I always find it very heart aching every time we talk about this and yea....I can't help crying when this topic arouses.Mom told me a lot about Edmund before he decided to go for law,my mom really wanted me to go for form 6 because she strongly believes that form 6 is a period where one would grow to be more mature and by that time one would be ready to chose what to study in uni or college,but the only problem is she knows and I know very well that I won't be able to do form 6 cause I'm weak in science subjects and if I go into arts for form 6 it would be a waste of time cause it's in BM.I know mom is not trying to discourage me or anything but she needs to ask me to make me feel more reassured of my choice.
Going to HELP to study psychology is the best place possible but the money is one problem and the other is my mom is afraid I would get bad influence or socially affected.I can't say it's not true...she's afraid that I'm not ready enough for college life and the next thing is she's worried about me not being able to fully focus.She asked me am I ready for that and the problems that she mentioned....I just answered that I won't be able to promise anything.I was busy tearing up.....but poor Ivan sat there,pulling tissues out from the tissue box one after another for me.My family has this trait where anyone of us cries the other would cry as well....too emotional lar all of us.
I want to go into HELP because they have te best psychology program but most probably with my dad's retirement coming up next year...that doesn't seem like an option anymore.other than HELP...the next one that offers quite a good program is UCSI.Aaarrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so ma fan lar!my head is so confused and now I'm starting to question myself...suddenly I seem so lost and I feel frustrated thinking about what is right or wrong for me. Other than going for psychology I don't know what else I can go for.I suddenly feel like my talent or whatever ability I have is that limited...
Mom knows that I'm aching and feeling very lost so she just told me to focus now and just do my best in SPM first.I know....but there's too much going through my head now and jia rong was just commentting yesterday that I have a lot of white hair because I think to much and I thought it was a random joke...guess not.
God...I'm confused,I'm lost and I'm too tired to keep questioning myself.Save ME!!!!
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
The wider skies
Ok...in exactly 1 month and 1 day I'll be graduating...and SPM is like 40 days away.....ok let's not freak out,...WAAAH!!!!!!!!!haizz....the stress is rising and the pile of homework is increasing too.I seriously can't wait to graduate and get out of school...no more waking up at 6 am,no more assemblies with the annoying and dreggy speechs,no more discipline teachers,no more boring school events...no more school with uniforms and neat tide hair....!Whee!!!!!!
But something occured to me today....Me and jia rong went to toilet during our Moral gerak gempur (which was haizz...no words to express),she went into the toilet while I wait for her out side the toilet as usual...I have a habit of leaning on the balcony just out side the toilet and everyday I stared at sky from that very same spot,the very same patch of the sky,the same sky scrappers from that balcony and very often the same blue of the sky...Then jia rong and most of the time jane as well would join me leaning on the balcony but today it was only the two of us though.I would always seem so depressed or like I'm in deep thought.
I would always let my mind wonder off as I stood there...I think about alot of things...and today this thought occured to me,I was staring at the sky again and I suddenly thought wow...it's just gonna be next month and that's it,I'm out of here,I'm finally graduating.And...I won't stare at the sky from this balcony anymore...not form this same angle anymore,I won't get to see the same positions of the buildings and trees and everything from this very balcony anymore,I won't be seeing the primary school kids running about the field or our house practices or the juniors running in the field...no more...not anymore.
I'm gonna stare at the sky from a bigger place,I'm gonna be at a place much more than a mere secondary school and this feels so light and happy but there's a sense of heaviness too,as much as I complain about school and everything I can't admit that I wouldn't wake up one day at 6 in the morning trying to get ready for school or packing my school bag for school the next day or even getting into my school uniform and getting into my school shoes to wear when I leave the house...It's been 11 years after all.Long and hard years in school....but I'm ready to break away from all that!
A random quote again~
The sky will always be the same sky but the place I stare the sky from will never be the same again...time to move on,time to grow up...time to say goodbye.
But something occured to me today....Me and jia rong went to toilet during our Moral gerak gempur (which was haizz...no words to express),she went into the toilet while I wait for her out side the toilet as usual...I have a habit of leaning on the balcony just out side the toilet and everyday I stared at sky from that very same spot,the very same patch of the sky,the same sky scrappers from that balcony and very often the same blue of the sky...Then jia rong and most of the time jane as well would join me leaning on the balcony but today it was only the two of us though.I would always seem so depressed or like I'm in deep thought.
I would always let my mind wonder off as I stood there...I think about alot of things...and today this thought occured to me,I was staring at the sky again and I suddenly thought wow...it's just gonna be next month and that's it,I'm out of here,I'm finally graduating.And...I won't stare at the sky from this balcony anymore...not form this same angle anymore,I won't get to see the same positions of the buildings and trees and everything from this very balcony anymore,I won't be seeing the primary school kids running about the field or our house practices or the juniors running in the field...no more...not anymore.
I'm gonna stare at the sky from a bigger place,I'm gonna be at a place much more than a mere secondary school and this feels so light and happy but there's a sense of heaviness too,as much as I complain about school and everything I can't admit that I wouldn't wake up one day at 6 in the morning trying to get ready for school or packing my school bag for school the next day or even getting into my school uniform and getting into my school shoes to wear when I leave the house...It's been 11 years after all.Long and hard years in school....but I'm ready to break away from all that!
A random quote again~
The sky will always be the same sky but the place I stare the sky from will never be the same again...time to move on,time to grow up...time to say goodbye.
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