I'm back! I hope...

Wow. I haven't blogged since my birthday. That's 4 months ago.

There are a million and one thoughts in my head but somehow I just never remembered to pen them down and when I do want to blog about them or write it down, I am at a loss for words. Anyhow. No point looking at what had passed (ngam ngam my iTunes is playing 'Don't Look Back At Anger' by Oasis).

So what has happened in my life?

Studies. Hanging out with friends. Movies (lots and lots of movies and series). Sports (badminton, swimming, bouldering). Driving (the jams are terrible.. T_T). Alone time. Chores. Serendipitous discoveries (self-dicoveries).

All in all, I have been good. Although a little busy and occupied, but I am happy. Very much so! =)

SO hello bloggie! :) I am back.

From UK with ♥ =D

I have been utterly surprised and moved in the most unimaginable way. They always said that distance tends to break or dampen any relationship but I guess there is always that one or two exception. :) Well, did I mention that I am officially 21? =P

The big two one is something big or at least celebrated but I think the real celebration and the real meaning is not in the presents nor in the wishes, nor the parties we throw.. it's actually having the people whom I love and care about around me on this day which makes it so special and so dear. Well, there's 3 particular people who I would love to have the most this day aside from my family; Jia Rong, Ai Jane and Elizabeth. And it so happens that all 3 of them are a few oceans away. Funny how the distance will actually make me think of them so much more. I miss you 3 dearly.

I am who I am today because of so many things, lessons and because of so many people and one of them being the 3 of you. What I wouldn't give to have the 3 of you here today. Sigh.. this is making me emotional. But.. let's brighten up the mood.


Going back to the main point.. this week has been made special because of you ELIZABETH CHIA SU YIN! :) I'll let the pictures do the talking.

First it was the postcard that arrived on Thursday.
I was so tired that day and when I walked into the house
I saw this card on the table with a familiar handwriting and
a UK stamp. I had to smile when I saw it. It was a wonderful
surprise to perk me from the exhausting day I had.

The yesterday (Friday, 18th Feb), I finally went to Liz's place
to collect the presents she got her brother to bring back from the UK.
I thought it was just one present, but I was surprised to find a bag with 2
gifts inside. And there was this note. Haha. She even left instructions.
I could so hear her say the words "or ELSE!" at the moment.

1) Open the largest package. TA-DA! She got me 2 Austen movies!
I haven't read Sense and Sensibility. Which means, i'll have to get the book
soon. And She got me Colin Firth's version of Pride & Prejudice which
I only managed to watch a little bit of the beginning in Sha's place.
I recently read a book called Mr Darcy's diary, how apt, now I get to
rewatch P&P! =)

2) Open the smaller package. haha. She gave me a stress ball keychain.
It's so cute. I've been squeezing it already. The stress ball is
actually a piece of keepsake and also in remembrance
of our stressful endeavor in Ms Winnee's class. lol. I actually miss Ms Winnee. =P



3) Open the silver envelop and read the card.
4) Read the letter in the card.
I nearly cried when I read them. sigh.. Now I miss her even more.
I hate and love you Liz! Mostly I hate you for being so
far away. Yea. I'm actually saying I miss you. =P Can you tell??

Then when I came home, I got another surprise from her.
Gosh.. she has so outdone herself this time. =)
I found a birthday card from her sitting in the postbox.
Again, what she wrote made me smile and cry at the same time.
How much more contradictory can I get, right? Sheesh..

But what made me feel touched and truly loved is this. I nearly missed it.
Thank you Liz, I'd say the same to you too. :)

Gosh... I feel all mushy now. =P

The best part about studying Mass Comm is actually the projects we get to do. This is a film project done by my friends. It's pretty funny and cute. Enjoy! =)

Babies :)

I volunteered to help my aunt with her kids this week cause her mom is out of town. I love kids. =) My cousins are superbly adorable. They are really easy to love and they are quite manageable. It'll be a real eye-opening experience to see these two grow before our eyes. Haha. Which means, I'm getting older. =P

This is baby Cheryll. She is just 2 months old.

I know, her chubby cheeks makes you wanna pinch it right?? =P

The amazing part about her is the fact that she knows how to return a smile

when you smile and talk to her. Kinda intelligent. :)

The only thing is that she likes to be carried around,

so it can be tiring but she smells awesome! (yea..I sniff her scent all the time! XP)

This is Darren. He's turning 2 this May. He's super active and super

playful. Kinda like me when I was a kid.

He very smiley and he's very sociable for a child of 1 plus.

He likes to play with other children when he sees them.

He has a habit of saying goodbye to anyone he sees going out the door even strangers.

He likes to wave goodbye and at the same time, he likes to give goodbye kisses.

He's one of the most engrossing films to watch!

Valentine by Kina Grannis

This is so sweet and the tune's just addictive. =)

They run 5km marathons, I watch english drama marathons =)

The word marathon always gives me the feel that it's a quick rush from one point to the other; it's adrenaline pumping and super exhilarating! I've been so obsessed with two series in particular; Chuck and Castle. =) Yeap.. Carmen likes everything that starts with a 'C'. It's a recurring pattern with me. Both the series have awesome concepts and a really good list of songs from a lot talented independent artists.

Chuck is about this nerdy guy who works at a Buy More as a computer tech. The twist is that he accidentally downloads the Intersect which contains the government's secret into his brain. So yeah, he's pretty much in grave danger and he got caught up in a web of spy stuff and fell in love with his handler (protector). Absolutely funny and lighthearted. It's not too heavy and it's really easy to fall in love with Zach Levi and Yvonne Strahovski. =)

Castle is a more lighthearted and witty version of CSI. There's no super high tech gear or really elaborate details about the sciences behind the evidence recovery. It really gives you a feel that your watching a mystery novel unfold. Really funny and entertaining. I absolutely like Beckett's character. She's liken the modern Elizabeth Bennet and Castle is just a really cool and humorous writer full of childlike wonder and wild theories. Stana Katic is stunning!

Enough words... PICTURES!

I like the way they look at each other. Awesome chemistry! :)

This is a cute scene. Spies and lovers. Quite the combo.

Their eyes just lock and it's amazing how they finish each other's sentence.

Sweet and somewhat cute.

Haha.. one of my favorite scenes!

This is another funny scene!

=) Can't wait to see what's next!

The End by Pearl Jam

I've been hooked on a new series... The soundtrack is pretty much awesome too! =)

What were all those dreams we shared

Those many years ago?

What were all those plans we made now

Left beside the road?

Behind us in the road

More than friends, I always pledged

Cause friends they come and go

People change, as does everything

I wanted to grow old

I just want to grow old

Slide up next to me

I'm just a human being

I will take the blame

But just the same

This is not me

You see?

Believe

I'm better than this

Don't leave me so cold

I'm buried beneath the stones

I just want to hold on

I know I'm worth your love

Enough

I don't think

There's such a thing

It's my fault now

Having caught a sickness in my bones

How it pains to leave you here

With the kids on your own

Just don't let me go

Help me see myself

Cause I can no longer tell

Looking out from the inside

Of the bottom of a well

It's hell

I yell

But no one hears before I disappear

Whisper in my ear

Give me something to echo

In my unknown future's ear

My dear

The end

Comes near

I'm here

But not much longer

I spent the entire of last year getting myself through things, schedules, routines and my life like it was robotic and pretty much numb. I keep thinking that there is something I missed or I shouldn't have let it pass me by.

Holidays is becoming something I actually dread. I can't believe I'm saying this but somehow, it just seems too slow. I wonder why or when I started to love the rush of a busy and hectic schedule. I'm sure I'll regret not enjoying my holidays more now when I'm working in the future.

2010 was a year of utter breakthrough filled with both the good and the bad. Most importantly it was a year of unending freshness. I've never experienced so many new things and I've never had a more tearful year. The tears have been shed over and over again and now.. it's finally stopped and it freaks me out.

The worst fear is not knowing the fact that I can't change things, but knowing that I have stopped to care and that I have given up. I can't shake this feeling off and it scares me to know that I can actually turn my mind off. Not that it's not a good thing; it's a good break to shut off my mind but I'm afraid that I have kept it off for too long that I'm now immune and numb.

So afraid that it makes my body shiver.. Seeing but truly seeing, knowing but not shaken, fearing but not at all moved.

I have finally admitted it. My defeat.

Oh my.. it's 2011 already. It actually just dawned on me that I'm turning 21. I couldn't really grasps the fact that I was turning 12, let alone 21. Still, I doubt that much of me is different. Nope. I highly doubt my 21-to-be self is any more different than my 20-plus self.

There's so much I would want to pen down, believe me, much has happened. Still, life happened. I practically rushed through the last half of 2010. From books to assignments to crazy projects to camp to my family trip. Don't get me wrong, it was enjoyable; it just all felt like a mad rush. I guess this year's probably gonna be the same.

Funny thing bout all this is that I still manage to squeeze in time for stuff like watching Chuck in high-speed marathon mode, catching up with friends from high school in really short lunch dates, etc.

21.. Can't wait! ;)