Friday, February 27, 2009

What you don't know won't hurt you?

This was the forum topic on LiteFM this morning. What you don't know won't hurt you? Do you agree? What say you?

Let me be a lit student for a moment. Hurt.. it can be defined as pain felt physically as well as emotionally, a sense of vulnerability and a wound inflicted that scars. The sentence is basically speaking of, the lack of a certain understanding and knowledge of something will put a person in a less vulnerable position from being wounded and injured.

There is no definite answer but I'd probably disagree more than agree. This brings me back to Chai Yee again. She did tell me, she wished she never seen it for herself and she wished she never knew. She wished for so much not to happen and when she tries to ignore it, it only burst open later.

I could understand why she said so but in an outsider's view point, I don't think so. Even if it hurts me to death, I'd still want to know the truth. I don't think I can live my life in lies. Though it'd make me feel happy, but it's only temporal.

Then again, if I was ever in Chai Yee's position I think I might prefer to close a blind eye and pretend nothing happened. It's not a hard task lying to others but it's definitely not an easy task lying to yourself. Maybe, knowing the truth, and knowing it early is the better alternative to recovery. The pain will be acute but fast and you'll have more time to mend. The deeper you dwell, the longer the pain.

What you don't know will not hurt you now, but the effect will be 10 times worse when the truth explodes in your face. Let the truth reveal itself when the time comes..don't wait till it explodes.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

What would you do?

It's only February and all I hear are break ups and not make ups. What happened? 'tis not the season for couples to sustain a relationship?

Within this 2 months alone, my phone is busied with phone calls that starts with sobs. After a few of them, I got used to hearing tears from the other end of the line. I received a few calls from Chai Yee yesterday. She was crying so badly, I couldn't make out a thing she said. I spent about 2 hours plus talking to her.

Bad news. Sad news... She is a dear friend, one who is smart, pretty and caring. To hear her cry and speak with such agony is a total pain for me as well. Listening to how she found her boyfriend betrayed her and left her, it made me angry in a way. I thought I knew him..but I guess I was as wrong as Chai Yee was. Men... sigh. How many times do you want to tear and rip our hearts apart?

Nothing I can say or do that will soothe her. Nothing. Only God can now. I hold a sense of regret and guilt for urging her to confront the issue and talk it over with him. But, if not, what else can be done? Is not honesty the first step? Is it not the essence of a relationship aside from love being it's core?

Then again... if it was me, I'm not sure what I'd do. What would you do?

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Tune In~just like the movies..

Wouldn't it be wonderful to have just one day of your life moving with a well planned script and an awesome soundtrack supporting it? I would love to try it myself.



Wake up to, Morning Has Broken
Wash up to, Beautiful
Get out of the house to, It's a Beautiful Day
Arrive in college to, Reach
Work my through to, One Step At A Time
Hang out with friends to, Best Days
End my day to, Coming Home
Fall asleep to, And So It Goes


Er..yup..that only happens in movies. But I do start everyday backed by an awesome soundtrack.


I wake up to the annoying sound of Happy Three Friends on my phone alarm

Brush my teeth to Ivan's loud and slow footsteps around the kitchen like he can collapse almost immediately

Bathe to the sound of water flowing and my neighbours' loud coughs

Dress to dad's quick footsteps along the corridor and the ignition of his Benz

RuSh~ out of the house to the sound of the electric gate opening and my little puppy's squeels

Sit in the car to, PK and Sara's morning show

Walk into college to the sound of cars arriving

Enter the lounge to soft chatters and some weird laughters

Go for class to the sound of groans and ARGH-s!!!

Spend my day in class to the voice of my 3 lecturers

Have lunch with friends to, "KAri mee!", "Yee mee...", "Aunty!I want..."
Disturb Jen in her office to, "Jennifer!this...", "Jennifer!that..."

Go for SC meetings to Eunice's insane laughter and screams, Pranav's scream and everyone's screams..

Follow Eunice home to, "eh..where's my car key!?!?"

Arrive home to...silence


Fall asleep at night to the voice of my Father speaking to me. =)



Now this is an awesome soundtrack.. :)

Monday, February 23, 2009

Childlike

This song has been in my head the entire day..

USE ME
Use me, Jesus use me, take this life of mine, and use me
Use me, Jesus use me, keep me by your side, and use me

All I want is to be with you to ever please you in all I do.
Teach me Father to learn your ways and walk with thee each day.

Only make me what you would have me be.
I only want to serve you faithfully.
Help me Father to truly see all you have for me.


I used to listen to the Donut Man in my dad's car and I would always sing along. Those were the days when I was so crazy about the Donut Man. I miss it a lot actually. This was one of my favorite songs. It has a really simple tune but it carries more meaning than it seems. I think even the children have more faith and love for God that we may have sometimes.

Think when we grow up, things tend to become complicated and more diverse.

We have so much to worry about,
so much to do,
so much hindrance,
so much distractions,
so little time..
and it's so often we're man/woman of little faith.


We get ourselves so tangled by everything and we even make the path leading to God seem more complicated than it actually is. We even backslide and stray away. We keep thinking that 'it's all about us' but it isn't at all. We loose sight of God's purpose and we loose sight of God's true plan for our lives.

We forgot to glorify God and to constantly remind ourselves that His Grace is sufficient for us. We fail to come to God and say, Lord, use me, use this life of mine to glorify your name. Use me Lord, use me for the extension of your Kingdom. Use me Lord where you see fit.


Where's that childlike faith? That childlike desire to come to God? Hope none of us will ever forget that. =)

Happy Bithday EUNICE GOH!

Hehee..as the title suggests, it's Eunice's birthday today!


Happy Birthday gal!!



Known her ever since primary school, it's been what.. 12 years! We were never close but got to know her more when I stepped into college. She's really someone very awesome! She's so caring, so loving, crazy, LOUD, funny, and an awesome sister in Christ! I love her to bits! Have a blast dear!!! Thanks for all the rides home! You've made working in the student council a blast as well.



~Thank you Lord for Eunice Goh Wei Yenn~

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Over and out! XD

YES!!!!!!!!! My heart was doing flip flops the moment we went on stage for the handover ceremony.
If my heart was some animated charater, it'd probably would have leaped out of my chest and run round the ballroom doing funny dance moves while cheering on top of it's voice "I'M FREE-eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!"

OB was good. In fact I dare say, it was a success! =) So much time went into the planning, so much meetings, so much late nights and so much stress and effort! *phew* Glad it's over and done with! The performances were quite good and thank God all the performers were so cooperative! The event actually started off 30 minutes late (that's really late!) yet somehow by 8 plus..everything magically fell into place! We were back on track. I can't thank the Lord enough!

Through out the night, we all running around the ballroom, in and out of the ballroom and even up and down the escalator as well. Yea, which is why my feet are still sore from running in heels!

The video got good response though everyone said it was too fast here and there which I agree but they understood the short time frame the video is allowed. When I tapped play, the music came out muffled and I started to panic! Oh yes. Panic!

I was about to murder the manager but the technician came in immediately and fixed the wiring. If not, think JP's face wouldn't have been pleasant at all.. =( Plus, I wasted my birthday on it. Thank God, it was ok. I know it's actually a horribly done video but thank you all for being so graceful, understanding and supportive! :)

The funniest thing that happened was the fact that I got best dressed. If Rong and Jane were there, think they'd laugh there heads off. My bro and mom were in shock when they saw the sash. Their response was, "HA! You!?" Yes, I actually was shocked myself too. ME!? You gotta be kidding me! Oh well. Thanks for the complement I guess.. ;)

Tired. Still feel tired actually. It's like all the late nights are hitting me hard all at once. Think I really need to take a break. At least I don't need to move till the week before treasure hunt..I hope. :s

Anyway, I'm officially retired from the student council! ok fine...sorta, but will spend more time with my studies and minimize helping with treasure hunt. So i'm signing off.. XD



OVER AND OUT!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

1919

I turned 19 today on the 19th of February.
Yeap... I'm a year older, hopefully a year wiser too. =)


ZZZZzzz... I'm sleep deprived. What a treat on my birthday, right? Well, it's not exactly the best way to spend your birthday when a major event is happening tomorrow and there's still plenty to be done. Anyway, that aside.

Hehehe!!!!!!!! Since it's my birthday, shall be perky and happy! I was really touched by everyone. Before the clock even touched 12 am, my phone started receiving messages already! All the sweet people la.. Every sms only widen my smile. =D What is more amazing is, even the juniors wished me! wahlau...I feel so important now! :P

I even got presents! Aw..the sweet people!!! Thanks everyone! You've all made my day!

The spotlight always seems to be on the birthday girl/boy doesn't it? But the truth is, the spotlight is never on us only. I remembered mom said that, when her birthday comes, she would remember her mother, the one who carried her for 9 months, went through the painful process of delivering her and the one who brought her up to be who she is today.

When I was younger, that didn't make much sense to me. It's my birthday and it's all about me. That was what I used to think, but growing up, I realized how true mom's statement was. It's my birthday, true, but it's also the day that I should always remember the one who brought me to this world. So thank you mom, for making me grow into the person I am now. =) It's all about you too! Love ya~!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Orientation Camp

Since my juniors are ever so spotting.. and since some of them blogged about camp and orientation week.. I shall join the crowd! =D Besides I have most of the photos and videos anyway. =D I feel like some stalker..

Camp was good. Hope the juniors had enjoyed it. As for us (student council) we're pretty much tired and exhausted. We stayed up till 2 am just to plan the games and what not..hehe..but it was worth it when we saw them having fun.
My fav part in camp was the stream trotting, the night event we planned and of course the games! (like duh!I planned it with Eunice and Shonna) Well..to see what happened. Watch out for the video going on OB night. =D

Ragging was quite fun too! =P I'm nice to girls but I make the guys do physical stuff like pumping, chin up, and physical stuff la. Yes, I'm pretty sexist, too bad then! I make the girls tell jokes or spell..


SUPERCALIFRAGALISTICEXPIALIDOCIOUS!

Trust me, it's real funny to see them spelling it. As for the jokes..er..it's quite lame. I make some of them tell me about 5 jokes before I gave them my signature! I have a few nicknames among them, things like crazy carmen/carmen ng (courtesy of Jeremy)/klutz~/senior.. Hmm..some of them are scared of me too.. what did I do? :p Haha!


Well shall let the photos do some talking..


Hehe..all geared up for camp!


Me and Shonna
I like this pic! =)


Ms Moey advising us


Bus A



I think Pranav was eating and as Eunice claims..
she was posing.



Caught eating a polar cup by mr reuben



the juniors were pitching their tents
while we... well.. were just chilling out. =P



Mr Jimmy giving instructions




I like this pic too!


do ya see the iguana up there?? =)



our pavilions.. =)


haha..yes, I know you want to laugh too!


the ladies' man


i think he was asking for something..
eunice wouldn't give it to him unless he danced.haha!!


this is the power of the SLR!!




our secretary hard at work..



our treasurer...busy posing..



Talk 1






getting ready for the night walk

we made it out!


eh..does it look like some romeo and juliet pose..?


mark looks like he's scared of her..



hehe...caught!

BEFORE...

AFTER...


I survived!!




this are some of the juniors that called me crazy carmen.. :S



we were the last ones at the back..

WATERFALL!!!


he was supposed to the pink panther



this is when Terminator meets the Pink Panther









that's tien eu in the sleeping back..
he was suppose to be a 'leech'

wow..i can fit my fist in there.. =p


apparently that's james bond up there







your looking at the judges k!


we couldn't stop laughing..seriously!


no no..it's not what you think it is.



it's actually for this! =D

Judge Pranav and his secretary..
AHAHA!!he looks like mary had a little lamb right?? XD


punishment for going into the guys tent

punishment for not pitching their tents properly



punishment for not having any leech bites!









What more can I say..?
Haha...camp was fun! =D