Praise The Lord! XD

Yeap! Praise The LORD! :)


I applied for the PTPTN loan about a week ago and by Friday the 23rd of Oct I would know if it was approved. So I checked it just now since mom reminded me to do so and BAMM!

It said,

Status Permohonan Pembiayaan Pendidikan PTPTN

No. Permohonan : xxxxxx

Jumlah Pembiayaan Pendidikan Yang Diluluskan : RM 48,000.00

Terima Tawaran atau Tolak Tawaran

I think I couldn't have clicked the 'terima tawaran' any quicker! :P Mom was happy, dad was..er..okay happy. I AM VERY HAPPY! =D My elder bro also got PTPTN, but his was about 24 K. I thought I wouldn't get it, but who knew? Praise the Lord! :)

Well, at least my dad doesn't need to worry bout my fees anymore. Phew~!

Smile Worthy ♥

Fridays... I like Fridays! Not forgetting thursdays and wednesdays too. :) I feel happy today. So happy and giggle-ish. It's like there are no dark clouds hanging above me.. It's another lovely day. No wonder no dark clouds can come creeping on me. :) The Sun is shinning and everything is just lovely and full of song!

It's finally the 23rd. We've been plainning a surprise party for my Aunt Yin Peng and it's tonight!! WHEE!!! She's been stressed out and bogged down lately, hope this will make her smile. =D This planning goes way back to August! Geng right? My relatives from HK are here just for this. Well, my Aunt Yin Peng has done too much for everyone and she loved us so much. It's the least we can do for her.

She dresses me from head to toe since I was a baby. She still does now. Nearly all the clothes I have is bought by her. All my shoes. All my bags. Everything. Even my bed is from her! She has no children of her own but she loved me and my brothers and my cousins like her own. She really has a giving heart and she is the only other Christian in the family. Praise God for that! :) She really represents Dorcas in the Bible. :) I ♥ my aunt!

I can't help smiling today. God gave me every other reason to smile as well. The sky, the weather, everything wonderful and beautiful He carefully placed in my life. Yup. Including the wonderful family and friends He blessed me with. Amen for all that!

Smile though your heart is aching

Smile even though its breaking

When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by

If you smile through your fear and sorrow

Smile and maybe tomorrow

You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness

Hide every trace of sadnessA

lthough a tear may be ever so near

Thats the time you must keep on trying

Smile, whats the use of crying?

You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just smile :)

Smile. :)

song song mood

Yes.. I have been on a song song mood for about 2 months. :) Song song mood aka SSM (yea..a fantastic term created by me XD)

I think the first thing I learnt in mass comm class was the reason why a lot of people watch the movies and the dramas and also why actors back in the olden days act. Guess what the answer is???

"Escapism"

Well. Now it's for totally different reasons but yeap, that was the apparent reason last time. Same goes with singers..the better example would be poets. Duh! How can I forget Keats. One whole semester of him was enough to prove how much escape he and I needs. ;p

No matter when I'm happy or sad, angry or frustrated, powerless or hopeless, I find that talking to God helps and one more thing.. Listening to music. The right songs just seems to play. Coincidence? Maybe..maybe not. Maybe God is using the advance technology like my little ipod to tell me things. Or maybe it's haunted la. ;p But I prefer to think it's the first one. :)

For some reason, I'm very swayed by music. It's like it will effect my mood and my emotions for the day. Funny thing to be swayed by right? I'm in a SSM again. Happy or sad? Both.

Assuredly Yours by Planet Shakers is playing now. Guess what? The lyrics fit in so perfectly.. just the very things I need to hear this moment. :)

Are you in a SSM?

Your Song by Harry Connick Jr

I'm not exactly Harry Connick Jr's fan but I like the way he sang this song. :) His arrangement is jazzy yet catchy and lively. Awesome tune. :)

A song to brighten up your day. :)

Stuck in the spider's web..

I begin notice that I'm getting myself tangled in something really far too much for me fully grasps. What the thing about secrets that really kills you? For me, it's the keeping it a SECRET part while trying to pretend there is no secret and trying to be SANE at the same time.

I agree more and more with the phrase, "the more I know, the less I understand." The more is revealed..the more confused I get. There's so much I wish I didn't know but it so happened that everything just came right at me without a warning. It's true when they say you don't need to look for trouble..cause they'll come knocking at your door.

When someone lets you in on their secret.. your actually becoming part of it too. You are as guilty and your condoning on the matter. It's a one way ticket to that spot the moment you set foot on that train. Notice how trains will never back track? Yes, we've past the point of no return. Your trapped and tangled. Just like the feeling of being stuck in a gigantic web.

Anyone would jump into any ocean if they see their loved one drowning in it.. that's just it. You cannot sit and watch. You cannot not help. You cannot pretend that you didn't know and just walk away. You have to and need to jump in.

Bleak? I wish I knew how to answer. I'm falling deeper and deeper and though I see a hand that intends to pull me up, I can't grab it. I can't even allow it to pull me up. Why? Because there's always somethings and someone that you'll need to protect and help. Even if it kills you. Even if it means your going against everything in the world.



Stuck... for good.

PDA

Been doing a lot of thinking lately. Way too much actually. That's what you get for studying Psychology subjects.

You tend to do a lot of thinking, ponder about your life and you even tend to do a lot of soul searching and self-discovery(so Heaney!). Especially in Leadership & Life Skills class. I know I know.. what kinda subject is that right? Too bad. I must take it cause it's a pre-requisite subject.

I have to this assignment called PDA(not public display of affections..ehm ehm..), or known as Personal Development Assignment. Basically, I have to pick an area of my life and well...develope it, improve on it and become a better leader in the process. Sound like some crappy thing right?

That's what I thought at first, but I'm begining to think it's a good channel for me to do some emotional release. :) At least it keeps me sane.

In the Light...

Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet

And a light unto my path...

When I feel afraid

Think I've lost my way

Still You're there right beside me

And nothing will I fear

As long as You are near

Please be near me to the end

Heading to?

That somewhere

Going to?

That direction

Walking to?

That path

Which ever place, direction or path I'm going to.. I know I'm not lost. I can't be lost. How shall I fear of the unknown when I KNOW He's here with me. How shall fear darkness when His LIGHT shines my path for me. How shall I fear the obstacles ahead when I know that He will GUIDE me.

phew~!

Had my first group presentation in class today. *inhale exhale inhale exhale*


My group had present about Asian movies and mind you, it's not simple at all. At first I had lots of ideas for it but somehow, due to many factors and time constrains...those ideas were scrapped.

But it turned out okay. :) At least they laughed at my jokes and laughed when they were watching trailers. I wasn't scared, I never was. But I was afraid it'd be too dull that it'll lull people to sleep! Well thank God! Hahahahahaha!!!!!!

say it with me... "PHEW~!!" X_x