Stop.Stare.Wait.

It comes.

Once in a while.

You just need to stop.
When everything

seems to be moving

in all sorts of directions around you,

you just need to stop.

Stay still amongst the busiest crowds.

I stopped. I stopped today.

Motionless.

Stationary.

Still.

I was motionless.

I was unmoved.

One went pass..

and another..
and another..

and another.

I remained as I was.

I stared at the moving images before me..

It felt like I frozed into non-existance.

The clouds pass by me..

taking it's shape into something new.

Dark clouds. I saw them come.

Did turn the sky grey as well?

I was sure rain is coming.
I felt rain had already hit anyway.
So heavy. So heavy.
Then it just stopped. Restrained.

Another came.

Do I go? Do I move?

Reluctantly.

Heart heavy and

mind uptight.

I walked..

Forwards..

Back to reality.

Time to get off that chair.

'Horror-skoop'

The thing about Psychology subjects is..
you don't actually feel mentally stimulated..
you actually fall asleep.
I wonder why?

I blame Johnny for this.
Pun intended.
=p




I spent time with a Libra today.
Libras don't go with Pisces.
I dunno. The 'Horror-skoop' said so..
So what are we doing sitting next to each other?
Irony ke?


Or is it some greater forces of attraction at work ke?
Hmm..tak tahu la.. I wanna sleep.







tick tock tick tock...
the mouse has long gone
I'm still here...... next to you.
Some funky "RAM-DEERRR-WALLL" attraction kut.


"eh.. go makan la."
"can. but I'm pretty broke."
"you watch me eat can?"
"so mean.." *merajuk*

pisces don't go along with libras wad.
it's written in the horror-skoop.



Super-nya.
Ya la.
Me and you.. you and me..
We go against the flow.
Ya man.. No joke.


Wonder why
Wonder how
Why do I feel like I know you Libra?
Maybe I'm not a pisces after all..




Funny.
You seem to know me too
Sekali we're both some funky 'horror-skoop'
But wouldn't it be lovely? :)



talk.sleep.eat.drink.
I like that very much.
Jumpa la lagi. :)



We'll go walk to the places you like,
We'll sit in silence
Look at the sky
And wonder why we ever bothered
if we were pisces or libra.




One PSY 105 class is worth while if I have you Libra. :)
Don't fall off the platform next time I see you..
Balance!

Beauty For Brokenness

I was touched by this song. :) If's there's anything or anyone that can fill a whole, it's definitely JESUS. :)

Beauty for brokenness,
Hope for despair,
Lord, in your suffering world,
This is our prayer,
Bread for the children,
Justice, joy, peace,
Sunrise to sunset,
Your kingdom increase!

"Come, change our love,

From a spark to a flame.."

To sum it ALLLLLLLLLL up..

My week was unusually packed. No..not packed as in busy and tight (ok..fine..it was packed ;p) but more like packed with all sorts of feelings and little things to smile, laugh and cry about.


Monday
Spent it doing my assignment. At the end of the day.. I still couldn't finish it! T_T Oh well, it's due on Friday. :p



Tuesday
Classes from 8 to 6. Hmmm...nothing out of the ordinary here too.



Wednesday
Went for Jennifer's body. Gave myself a real scare watching that. Note to self. DO NOT SAY YES TO ANYMORE HORROR MOVIES! Yeap, rock climbing for me as usual. Except..'someone' ditched again. Hmph. Ended up climbing with 3 other guys. Where are the girls when you need some company? sigh...



Thursday
Hehehehehe! Class ended at 10! We were off for lunch at Tropicana City, then we went to the arcade to play Daytona/Datona/Deitona (whichever it is) and the ice-hockey-puck-looking-thing-on-the-super-slippery-table (what is it called?? @_@ ).

After that, I headed to 1U to meet Mel (the-one-who-ditched-me-yesterday :P). We had a game of pool. I nearly rolled on the floor laughing. ;p Then we went for Time Traveller's Wife. I cried. She didn't. Unsual-nya.

It was my mom's birthday as well. Well, turns out that no one planned anything. So we didn't eat out and guess what? the birthday girl stayed in bed for the rest of night with a really bad migrain while I stayed in front of the PC till 3 plus doing my PDA. Sad case.



Friday
Woke up with my eyes barely open. Went to college, slept at the DSA till 9 and headed straight to work. Finally finished my assignment around 12 plus and ended up waiting for a friend who was still doing it till 2. Didn't have breakfast..I even skipped lunch too. Tiring tiring day indeed.

Reached home round 6. Used the PC for a while and headed for my bed before I collapsed. Then I got a phone call. "get dressed. we're going for dinner.get ready." sigh.. I had to leave my beauty sleep, no no..my much needed sleep for dinner. Well dinner was great actually. Food was awesome and wine was awesome. House of Tangs is really good! :)




THE BEST PART IS THIS:.......


My dad and I are like in good terms again. :) We are talked the entire night and we laughed about things. Yeap, definitely the highlight of my week. :) To sum it all up, we have passed the SILENT WAR. phew......glad that's over. =D

There's a light at the end of the tunnel.

Really? I just can't seem to reach it though. So close yet so far. Or maybe it's been too far to be even close enough. I wonder how far more till I see light. Can I last till then or will I just stop dead in my tracks and STOP?

I wish I could just jump off and dive into the ocean. Sink in and sink deep. Where I could hear nothing, see nothing and say nothing.

Peace. Silence. Stillness.

Praise The Lord! XD

Yeap! Praise The LORD! :)


I applied for the PTPTN loan about a week ago and by Friday the 23rd of Oct I would know if it was approved. So I checked it just now since mom reminded me to do so and BAMM!

It said,

Status Permohonan Pembiayaan Pendidikan PTPTN

No. Permohonan : xxxxxx

Jumlah Pembiayaan Pendidikan Yang Diluluskan : RM 48,000.00

Terima Tawaran atau Tolak Tawaran

I think I couldn't have clicked the 'terima tawaran' any quicker! :P Mom was happy, dad was..er..okay happy. I AM VERY HAPPY! =D My elder bro also got PTPTN, but his was about 24 K. I thought I wouldn't get it, but who knew? Praise the Lord! :)

Well, at least my dad doesn't need to worry bout my fees anymore. Phew~!

Smile Worthy ♥

Fridays... I like Fridays! Not forgetting thursdays and wednesdays too. :) I feel happy today. So happy and giggle-ish. It's like there are no dark clouds hanging above me.. It's another lovely day. No wonder no dark clouds can come creeping on me. :) The Sun is shinning and everything is just lovely and full of song!

It's finally the 23rd. We've been plainning a surprise party for my Aunt Yin Peng and it's tonight!! WHEE!!! She's been stressed out and bogged down lately, hope this will make her smile. =D This planning goes way back to August! Geng right? My relatives from HK are here just for this. Well, my Aunt Yin Peng has done too much for everyone and she loved us so much. It's the least we can do for her.

She dresses me from head to toe since I was a baby. She still does now. Nearly all the clothes I have is bought by her. All my shoes. All my bags. Everything. Even my bed is from her! She has no children of her own but she loved me and my brothers and my cousins like her own. She really has a giving heart and she is the only other Christian in the family. Praise God for that! :) She really represents Dorcas in the Bible. :) I ♥ my aunt!

I can't help smiling today. God gave me every other reason to smile as well. The sky, the weather, everything wonderful and beautiful He carefully placed in my life. Yup. Including the wonderful family and friends He blessed me with. Amen for all that!

Smile though your heart is aching

Smile even though its breaking

When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by

If you smile through your fear and sorrow

Smile and maybe tomorrow

You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness

Hide every trace of sadnessA

lthough a tear may be ever so near

Thats the time you must keep on trying

Smile, whats the use of crying?

You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just smile :)

Smile. :)