Okay.. coming back to the question, "why study lit?" Sigh* I know there's no definite answer but I'm not satisfied with not finding out either. The more I answer I don't know..the more I want to know.. this is the part about being a girl.. hahaha.. typical!
I did however put this question aside over the weekend but somehow 3 other people asked me by chance this week the same question, "hey, so why did you take up Literature?" It's like I have to answer for real this time.
I would say, I like learning literature. In fact, I love it a lot! I began to notice that I look forward to reading poems more than anything else. I began to notice I try to think more than is needed. How shall I put it..? It's just like I'm being trained to be a lit student from scratch. Your senses tries to be more alert to things which to most people it may seem...ordinary?
I'm sure even till now that I do want to do psychology after A-Levels, that I'm sure but I feel a little guilty and wasteful to just forget all I learnt in Lit. Of course there's always the option to do a double degree or a twinning programme but that means I'll spent more time studying before earning. I think i began to understand why mom was greatly encouraging me to come for A-Levels instead of jumping into foundation straight away. Maybe that extra time would prepare me better to choose what road I want to take hence forth.
I think as sure as a person can be sometimes, God will put you to the test and it's His way of giving us an option in life, a second choice. It's still months away before I need to worry about this but the actual comes down to either a twinning or double in either psychology and law or psychology and lit. Wah..tough choice!
Eunice asked yesterday, "Eh..why did want to take literature anyway?" I was a little dumbfounded at first but I think I gave an answer something like that, "That was actually the first subject I choose, Law and Econs were the only subjects I think I could cope with. I really like studying Lit cause I enjoyed it with Pn Lyla back in school so I did the same when I came into MCKL." Eunice said it was good that it was my first choice and that I like it cause not many poeple who will truly enjoy it these days.
Everyone keeps saying that I'll become a lawyer and I don't think I would (I hope not la..) not that I don't like it but I just think my family doesn't need 2 lawyers. Ahahaha..! I want to become a psychologist cause one I love to talk and two cause I want to help people by talking them through their lowest moments in life and just be there for all those I love and care about.
Well..this post is long enough, I'll leave it here first...maybe I'll find more answers.. :)
Friday, August 29, 2008
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Poems from E.E.Cummings~
I carry your heart with me
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
I thank you God for most this amazing
i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes
(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday;this is the birth
day of life and of love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)
how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any--lifted from the no
of allnothing--human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?
(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
Once Like A Spark/If stangers meet
(once like a spark)
if strangers meet
life begins-
not poor not rich
(only aware)
kind neither
nor cruel
(only complete)
i not not you
not possible;
only truthful
-truthfully,once
if strangers(who
deep our most are
selves)touch:
forever
(and so to dark)
This are some poems by E.E.Cummings. The first one was recommended by Ms Melalyn, and I happen to come across the next two. I read a bit about E.E.Cummings and according to the info his poetry are mostly sonnets which largely deals with love and nature, as well as the relationship of the individual to the masses and to the world. His poems are also often rife with satire. Some of his poems are free verse which they follow no rhyme or meter.
I think when I was about 11, I started writing poems myself. I have a little collection of them kept hidden behind my books. I never did show them to anyone cause I think my poems are depthless and somehow pointless to the world. It only means something to me which I think is why I kept writing them cause I believe that it's my way of self expression without fear or bondages.
I pretty much a loner when I was younger, of course I do have a lot of friends I can giggle with but I don't seem to truly belong to any one group. As I'm much older now, my social circle is of course better, I can mix with any 'gang' but still I doubt I belong anywhere. Nope, I'm not a pessimist or some depressed soul but I think it's just that God hasn't brought me to meet the people I can truly belong with. =) However, He did bring me to 2 people (Jia Rong & Ai Jane) which I can call best friends though we have now moved on with life and there's an ocean between the 3 of us.
Being alone often makes me think more than speak and I think it's one of the reason why I write poems or stories(will never be shown to the world as well =p) or blog. My thoughts can just go about wandering and it makes me a very very random person. Since I started writing poems and also reading psychology articles and books, I began change my mind set slowly. I tend to see things much more complicated than they are (haha.. :p) like a glass of water isn't just a glass of water or a leaf isn't just a leaf..
Long story short, I just think too much but since it doesn't strain me brain..I shall leave it alone. haha.. Kai Li asked Ms Melalyn just now, "what are the benefits of studying English Lit?" I was waiting for Kai Li so I just joined in the convo. Ms Melalyn gave us a lot of her view points which made me think. I asked myself that moment, "So why did I choose to study Lit now?"
Hmm...why?? I know I do like literature and I like English but hmm..what more??Ok..having a headache...shall answer this question later..need to sleep.. =p
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
I thank you God for most this amazing
i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes
(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday;this is the birth
day of life and of love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)
how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any--lifted from the no
of allnothing--human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?
(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
Once Like A Spark/If stangers meet
(once like a spark)
if strangers meet
life begins-
not poor not rich
(only aware)
kind neither
nor cruel
(only complete)
i not not you
not possible;
only truthful
-truthfully,once
if strangers(who
deep our most are
selves)touch:
forever
(and so to dark)
This are some poems by E.E.Cummings. The first one was recommended by Ms Melalyn, and I happen to come across the next two. I read a bit about E.E.Cummings and according to the info his poetry are mostly sonnets which largely deals with love and nature, as well as the relationship of the individual to the masses and to the world. His poems are also often rife with satire. Some of his poems are free verse which they follow no rhyme or meter.
I think when I was about 11, I started writing poems myself. I have a little collection of them kept hidden behind my books. I never did show them to anyone cause I think my poems are depthless and somehow pointless to the world. It only means something to me which I think is why I kept writing them cause I believe that it's my way of self expression without fear or bondages.
I pretty much a loner when I was younger, of course I do have a lot of friends I can giggle with but I don't seem to truly belong to any one group. As I'm much older now, my social circle is of course better, I can mix with any 'gang' but still I doubt I belong anywhere. Nope, I'm not a pessimist or some depressed soul but I think it's just that God hasn't brought me to meet the people I can truly belong with. =) However, He did bring me to 2 people (Jia Rong & Ai Jane) which I can call best friends though we have now moved on with life and there's an ocean between the 3 of us.
Being alone often makes me think more than speak and I think it's one of the reason why I write poems or stories(will never be shown to the world as well =p) or blog. My thoughts can just go about wandering and it makes me a very very random person. Since I started writing poems and also reading psychology articles and books, I began change my mind set slowly. I tend to see things much more complicated than they are (haha.. :p) like a glass of water isn't just a glass of water or a leaf isn't just a leaf..
Long story short, I just think too much but since it doesn't strain me brain..I shall leave it alone. haha.. Kai Li asked Ms Melalyn just now, "what are the benefits of studying English Lit?" I was waiting for Kai Li so I just joined in the convo. Ms Melalyn gave us a lot of her view points which made me think. I asked myself that moment, "So why did I choose to study Lit now?"
Hmm...why?? I know I do like literature and I like English but hmm..what more??Ok..having a headache...shall answer this question later..need to sleep.. =p
Monday, August 25, 2008
All the way from Redang~
You must be wondering what or who has come all the way from redang eh??? Haha...this is a really unique and cute thing...yes, it'a a thing..so what could this 'it' be??? hehehehe... Guessed it yet? Okay, fine just let me show it to ya then!!!
READY!?
TA-DA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A CUTE LITTLE TURTLE!!!!!!!!!!! (Krystal points out the amazing feature is that it knows how to nod!)
READY!?
TA-DA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A CUTE LITTLE TURTLE!!!!!!!!!!! (Krystal points out the amazing feature is that it knows how to nod!)
Haha... Thanks Krystal for the wonderful souvenier though it took quite some time to reach me =p But still, I like it! Shall proudly stand it on my shelf!
Friday, August 22, 2008
Faces
Names may change and faces pass,
But the tune's the same, we'll make it last,
(This is from the song 'Within These Walls' from BBGS. It was sung to celebrate the school turning 100 years old. FIY, it's already 115 years old..)
Out of the entire song, this is my favorite line. =) It may sound sad but I find it depicts life very much. Faces just brings us back to memory lane, when you see a face, it tells different stories and accounts, don't you think so?
I have a tendency of either laughing, smiling, grinning, pulling a long face or going a little agitated when I see different faces that I had encountered throughout this 18 years of my life. Think about it.. wouldn't you? As I said, I like people watching and sometimes... I like to just look at photos, when I do, it makes my thoughts travel and ask questions like a curious child.
Hahaha...I'm very random today =D oh well...I gotta go..
Randomness~
But the tune's the same, we'll make it last,
(This is from the song 'Within These Walls' from BBGS. It was sung to celebrate the school turning 100 years old. FIY, it's already 115 years old..)
Out of the entire song, this is my favorite line. =) It may sound sad but I find it depicts life very much. Faces just brings us back to memory lane, when you see a face, it tells different stories and accounts, don't you think so?
I have a tendency of either laughing, smiling, grinning, pulling a long face or going a little agitated when I see different faces that I had encountered throughout this 18 years of my life. Think about it.. wouldn't you? As I said, I like people watching and sometimes... I like to just look at photos, when I do, it makes my thoughts travel and ask questions like a curious child.
Hahaha...I'm very random today =D oh well...I gotta go..
Randomness~
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
E.E.Cummings ~
l(a le
af
fa
ll
s)
one
l
iness
This is a poem by E.E. Cummings. Yes, as weird as it may seem..this is a poem. I think out of all the poems we studied in literature this would be my favorite. At first impression this poem seems nothing more than codings but it actually holds so much hidden meaning in it. If you look at the poem vertically, you won't get it, but if you turn it horizontal...
l(a leaf falls)oneliness If you take away the words in the bracket and the baracket itself...
loneliness
Get it??? Even then, 4 words don't seem to mean much eh? This poem actually talks a lot about life. Think about it.. it's actually very simple. Simple as it may seem, it's sophisticated at the same time. Life..like how a falling leaf would be, the falling process is short but slow all at the same time. Picture how a piece of falling leaf would look like. It glides gently in the air in a pretty slow pace like as if it would take forever to touch the ground but when you look at the watch it only took a few seconds.
One of the main things I think this poem strikes me the most is the message that life is actually very short and brief but at the same time long and draggy. There's 2 sides to the coin, it's short yet long. Life can go by us so quickly and if we are not appreciative of what we have, it'll soon burn out like a candle and that's it.. Yea, I know it's complicated but it's meaningful despite being simple.
When I first read this, I was like "Har..?this is a poem?more like codings.." Then when Ms Melalyn and all of us discussed the shape and messages this peom conveys, the entire picture is clearly painted out. I was shocked and very impressed by this short poem. I won't go on about what I wrote in my essay cause it's too long winded and crappy but think about it... isn't life depicted this way?
What do you think?? :)
BRATs 08' - Kajang (Country Heights) Aug 16-19
I think I was jumping up and down with excitement when I recieved the e-mail from BRATs. The BRATs camp was supposed to be in Kuala Selangor but due to some unforseen circumstances, it was held in Country Heights, Kajang instead.The entire camp was really awesome! I learnt so much and made a lot of new and sweet memories.
I've got so much to tell but I don't even know where to start from. But erm... let's just go with the lodgings first. I was in Country Heights 5 years ago for a DUMC camp and I think nothing much changed in this place. We stayed in Green Scene Coast which is the same place I stayed at 5 years ago! Our villas are awesome!!! I shared my room with Alethea and Atiquah (all 3 of us are ANIME freaks!!XD)
Food? TOTALLY DELICIOUS!! Duh! It's Country Heights we're talking about. Every meal is a wide buffet spread and it's just so awesome. Getting hungry just thinking bout it..~ Food glorious food~
The people I met in BRATs are all really very creative, smart and funny. Everytime we had some free time, we would all mix around and talk about anything or we would all sit in a small groups and torment people with the IQ/Trick games like Grandma, Horses, The clock game, numbers, Black Magic and etc. It was really fun!
I met a lot of BU4 students, 2 students from SBU (I'm just so proud =]), other schools, colleges and states. All of just warmed up almost immediately and we jsut constantly had fun together. The games aside, we all were exposed to a lot of aspects of journalism. Other than writing articles only, each group had to do sound slides (so not easy) and videos (not any easier either!).
The first task we had was to take pictures of a glass of water anyway we like it within 10 minutes. My group chose to show my picture XD (so proud~) and the photographer, Chan was like, "This is a very good shot. Very creative but I just dunno what name to give it. I can't picture a name for it..hahaha." Ok, just for your info, everyone decided to named it "Defying Gravity" =p
We had quite a number of assigments to do during the camp and all the deadlines are absolutely making us stressed up.
Assingment 1 > Do a sound slide about Kajang Town. We wore our BRATs t-shirt and went to Kajang town to do interviews with random people (co-calling) and also to grab shots of the place for our sound slide. It wasn't an easy task cause Kajang isn't really that exciting so all of ushad some trouble finding our focus on the story but we managed to do it in the end though we passed the deadline by more than 6 hours!
What was funny bout this assigment was most of the people we ask to interview either don't know about the history of the town or they just simply don't know a thing about the place *sigh* How very helpful..but nevertheless a good experience. =)
Assignment 2 > Do a video. Our group had to do a video on a shoe factory located in Seri Kembangan. I was the videographer (yup!I got the chance to hold the video cam like some pro!) and it was actually a pretty tricky job. We did 2 interviews; Wen Jie was supposed to interview the founder but after atempting the interview for about 3 times, Wen Jie couldn't connect with the guy.
It was kind of scary when he just stopped Wen Jie cause he said the questions are not properly phrased. So I just stepped in to do it in cantonese cause my mandarine is so "GENG". I was freaking out a little during the interview but we didn't have a choice. I just asked 3 questions keeping it as simple as possible and praise God, the interview was over and done with.
Assignment 3 > Photo essay. The SIMPLEST assignment! yeay!! XD XD
It was a really good exposure and experience for us. Then it came to video editing..GOODNESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!! It's one of the most draggy process ever! We had to do voice overs (voice recording) for our sound slide and video with only one laptop. My group members didn't know how to use the windows movie maker except me, Marcus and Crystal (our leader). We were practically rotting in front of the laptop!
The video editing took us a lot of time but it was fun doing it with everyone helping out. The voice recording was also fun though a very tedious process. @_@ Our videos are not exactly good but we did it as a team, so we're proud! Go PHABs!!! (that's our group name by the way..)
It was really eye opening for all of us, being a journalist is hard work and it takes a lot of creativity and skills. Ivy our coordinator said, "I think those of you who came here wanting to be a journalist will now think twice before you choose this line ar..haha..got scared already." If it was me, ya, I think I would reconsider picking this profession! =p Very stressed and tiring!
All in all...I think I'm proud to be a BRAT! XD
Go check out the photos >>
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=148513&l=17c5b&id=567510583
I've got so much to tell but I don't even know where to start from. But erm... let's just go with the lodgings first. I was in Country Heights 5 years ago for a DUMC camp and I think nothing much changed in this place. We stayed in Green Scene Coast which is the same place I stayed at 5 years ago! Our villas are awesome!!! I shared my room with Alethea and Atiquah (all 3 of us are ANIME freaks!!XD)
Food? TOTALLY DELICIOUS!! Duh! It's Country Heights we're talking about. Every meal is a wide buffet spread and it's just so awesome. Getting hungry just thinking bout it..~ Food glorious food~
The people I met in BRATs are all really very creative, smart and funny. Everytime we had some free time, we would all mix around and talk about anything or we would all sit in a small groups and torment people with the IQ/Trick games like Grandma, Horses, The clock game, numbers, Black Magic and etc. It was really fun!
I met a lot of BU4 students, 2 students from SBU (I'm just so proud =]), other schools, colleges and states. All of just warmed up almost immediately and we jsut constantly had fun together. The games aside, we all were exposed to a lot of aspects of journalism. Other than writing articles only, each group had to do sound slides (so not easy) and videos (not any easier either!).
The first task we had was to take pictures of a glass of water anyway we like it within 10 minutes. My group chose to show my picture XD (so proud~) and the photographer, Chan was like, "This is a very good shot. Very creative but I just dunno what name to give it. I can't picture a name for it..hahaha." Ok, just for your info, everyone decided to named it "Defying Gravity" =p
We had quite a number of assigments to do during the camp and all the deadlines are absolutely making us stressed up.
Assingment 1 > Do a sound slide about Kajang Town. We wore our BRATs t-shirt and went to Kajang town to do interviews with random people (co-calling) and also to grab shots of the place for our sound slide. It wasn't an easy task cause Kajang isn't really that exciting so all of ushad some trouble finding our focus on the story but we managed to do it in the end though we passed the deadline by more than 6 hours!
What was funny bout this assigment was most of the people we ask to interview either don't know about the history of the town or they just simply don't know a thing about the place *sigh* How very helpful..but nevertheless a good experience. =)
Assignment 2 > Do a video. Our group had to do a video on a shoe factory located in Seri Kembangan. I was the videographer (yup!I got the chance to hold the video cam like some pro!) and it was actually a pretty tricky job. We did 2 interviews; Wen Jie was supposed to interview the founder but after atempting the interview for about 3 times, Wen Jie couldn't connect with the guy.
It was kind of scary when he just stopped Wen Jie cause he said the questions are not properly phrased. So I just stepped in to do it in cantonese cause my mandarine is so "GENG". I was freaking out a little during the interview but we didn't have a choice. I just asked 3 questions keeping it as simple as possible and praise God, the interview was over and done with.
Assignment 3 > Photo essay. The SIMPLEST assignment! yeay!! XD XD
It was a really good exposure and experience for us. Then it came to video editing..GOODNESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!! It's one of the most draggy process ever! We had to do voice overs (voice recording) for our sound slide and video with only one laptop. My group members didn't know how to use the windows movie maker except me, Marcus and Crystal (our leader). We were practically rotting in front of the laptop!
The video editing took us a lot of time but it was fun doing it with everyone helping out. The voice recording was also fun though a very tedious process. @_@ Our videos are not exactly good but we did it as a team, so we're proud! Go PHABs!!! (that's our group name by the way..)
It was really eye opening for all of us, being a journalist is hard work and it takes a lot of creativity and skills. Ivy our coordinator said, "I think those of you who came here wanting to be a journalist will now think twice before you choose this line ar..haha..got scared already." If it was me, ya, I think I would reconsider picking this profession! =p Very stressed and tiring!
All in all...I think I'm proud to be a BRAT! XD
Go check out the photos >>
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=148513&l=17c5b&id=567510583
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
BACK!
BRATs ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just came back today and I'm very tired. Been sleeping really late in camp but made lots of memories and met lots of really cool and friendly people!Will blog about this tomorrow. Pictures are going to facebook now so I'll paste the link at the bottom of this post. =)
I MISS EVERYONE FROM CAMP!!!!!!! Especially the PHAB BRATs!!!! (PHAB BRATs is my group name > Passionate Hot Amazing Boisterous BRATs! XD)
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=148513&l=17c5b&id=567510583
I just came back today and I'm very tired. Been sleeping really late in camp but made lots of memories and met lots of really cool and friendly people!Will blog about this tomorrow. Pictures are going to facebook now so I'll paste the link at the bottom of this post. =)
I MISS EVERYONE FROM CAMP!!!!!!! Especially the PHAB BRATs!!!! (PHAB BRATs is my group name > Passionate Hot Amazing Boisterous BRATs! XD)
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=148513&l=17c5b&id=567510583
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