This is what I hope for you.. Let go.. Slowly mend and slowly heal. You've hit rock bottom, then the only way left is up. Live an even better life. Your misery will only hurt you. Let go. :) I'll be praying for you.

When all our tears have reached the sea

Part of you will live in me

Way down deep inside my heart

The days keep coming without fail

A new wind is gonna find your sail

That's where your journey starts...

If

If freckles were lovely, and day was night,

And measles were nice and a lie warn't a lie,

Life would be delight,-

But things couldn't go right

For in such a sad plight

I wouldn't be I.

If earth was heaven, and now was hence,

And past was present, and false was true,

There might be some sense

But I'd be in suspense

For on such a pretense

You wouldn't be you.

If fear was plucky, and globes were square,

And dirt was cleanly and tears were glee

Things would seem fair,-

Yet they'd all despair,

For if here was there

We wouldn't be we.

E.E Cummings