"Faith is the bird that feels the light when the dawn is still dark." ~Rabindranath Tagore
Thursday, October 30, 2008
New Season
Still feel kinda sleepy though I just ate lunch =p It's 1:30 now...been sitting in the library since 8 studying Law. *yawns* Had the company of Alithea, David (who was talking bout his friend n his friend's crush), Regina and Annora.. oh yea..PJ was there too..
Me and Alithea were testing each other on Law, it was hilarious when we started to jumble words and the sections up..hope this doesn't happen afterwards O.o
panic + stress + law = MUMBO JUMBO!
Exam Seasons are/is :
1) Long nights with ice water (nope..not coffee..it doesn't work for me at night =p)
2) Stress levels on the raise X_x
3) Myself mumbling to myself???
4) waiting all day for my paper to begin *sigh*
5) having my nose stuck in the book..
6) feeling tired and sleepy all the time
7) lifeless people studying
8) when the canteen has less food for u..seriously!
9) my head swirling with facts from different subjects!
10) Unbareable without God's guidance and wisdom~
Okie..better go..exam starts in 23 minutes.. Wish me luck~ =)
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.." Philippians 4:13
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
Happy Birthday, Aunty Yin Peng!!!
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
=)
Every new day
Your glory unfolds
Filling my eyes
With Your treaures untold
The beauty of holiness
Brings worship a new
My greatest love is You
Call me deeper
Into Your grace
The river that flows
From the holy place
Wash over me
Cleansing me through
My greatest love is You
Thank you Lord for another beautiful day!
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
I've never heard nor seen her cry in such a state before. I guess the strongest person in the world would have their weak moments and especially with relationships as it's really complicated and delicate.
When I was talking to her, I began to picture myself in her state some where in time not too long ago.
I began to have an urge to cry as well.. Except when I was in such a state, I didn't call anyone nor find my best friend to talk. I normally would but somehow every intention was banished from my thoughts. I only talked to my best friend when I stopped crying and when I was much more composed.
Funny, I still couldn't explain why I decided to do it alone that day. Guess God, gave me the strength to pull through that day. =) I'm not used to blogging bout this stuff but here I am anyway.
She kept crying as she spoke and each detail made me felt a surge of pain. My mind was swirling with thoughts about her situation and mine. It was then only I relised that, I was like her..exactly like her back then. I felt like I wasn't of any help to her, I can't even think straight! I'm not bad at encouraging poeple or talking heart to heart talks with anyone but I just felt totally useless at that moment.
Then something miraculous happened... Okay not exactly miraculous but it came to my aid at the right time. I was trying hard to encourage her and when I thought I had ran out of words, I heard a loud voice, it's like thunder, and it started to rain.
I heard the voice say, "You fell down and you have hit rock bottom, but you stood up again. You can, so can she. You are given wisdom to speak. Don't loose hope."
Not sure if these were the exact words but it immediately soothed my heart and it gave me the wisdom to speak. Well, it was a really long conversation full of heart aches and bitter sweet moments. I hope little by little she will start to heal. As painful as it is, it will pass and though it seems as though the path has been shrouded by darkness, God will always lead us through the darkness and the pain. We have to hope~
Hope... that's all we've got sometimes.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Inspiring & Touching Poems =)
Thank you Lord for giving mankind such wonderful inspirations to write all these beautiful poems! =)
Phenomenal Woman
Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
The palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
Maya Angelou
Caged Bird
A free bird leaps
on the back of the wind
and floats downstream
till the current ends
and dips his wing
in the orange sun rays
and dares to claim the sky.
But a bird that stalks
down his narrow cage
can seldom see through
his bars of rage
his wings are clipped and
his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing.
The caged bird sings
with a fearful trill
of things unknown
but longed for still
and his tune is heard
on the distant hill
for the caged bird sings of freedom.
The free bird thinks of another breeze
and the trade winds soft through the sighing trees
and the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright lawn
and he names the sky his own.
But a caged bird stands on the grave of dreams
his shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing.
The caged bird sings
with a fearful trill
of things unknown
but longed for still
and his tune is heard
on the distant hill
for the caged bird
sings of freedom.
Maya Angelou
Still I Rise
You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.
Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.
Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.
Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.
Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.
You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.
Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?
Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.
Maya Angelou
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "Hope" is the thing with feathers
"Hope" is the thing with feathers—
That perches in the soul—
And sings the tune without the words—
And never stops—at all—
And sweetest—in the Gale—is heard—
And sore must be the storm—
That could abash the little Bird
That kept so many warm—
I've heard it in the chillest land—
And on the strangest Sea—
Yet, never, in Extremity,
It asked a crumb—of Me.
Emily Dickinson
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I Do Not Love You Except Because I Love You
I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.
I love you only because it's you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.
Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.
In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.
Pablo Neruda
If You Forget Me
I want you to know
one thing.
You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.
Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.
If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.
If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember that on
that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.
But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.
Pablo Neruda
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The Chimney Sweeper (Songs of Innocence)
When my mother died I was very young,
And my father sold me while yet my tongue
Could scarcely cry " 'weep! 'weep! 'weep!
'weep!"
So your chimneys I sweep & in soot I sleep.
There's little Tom Dacre, who cried when his
head,
That curl'd llke a lamb's back. was shav'd: so I
said
"Hush. Tom! never mind it, for when your
head's bare
You know that the soot cannot spoil your
white hair."
And so he was quiet & that very night,
As Tom was a-sleeping, he had such a sight!
That thousands of sweepers, Dick, Joe, Ned
or Jack.
Were all of them lock'd up in coffins of black.
And by came an Angel who had a bright key,
And he open'd the coffins & set them all free;
Then down a green plain leaping, laughing, they
run,
And wash in a river. and shine in the Sun.
Then naked & white, all their bags left behind,
They rise upon clouds and sport in the wind;
And the Angel told Tom, if he'd be a good
boy,
He'd have God for his father & never want joy.
And so Tom awoke; and we rose in the dark.
And got with our bags & our brushes to work.
Tho' the morning was cold, Tom was happy &
warm;
So if all do their duty they need not fear harm.
William Blake
The Chimney Sweeper (Songs of Experience)
A little black thing among the snow:
Crying weep, weep, in notes of woe!
Where are thy father & mother! say!
They are both gone up to the church to pray.
Because I was happy upon the heath,
And smil'd among the winters snow:
They clothed me in the clothes of death,
And taught me to sing the notes of woe.
And because I am happy, & dance & sing,
They think they have done me no injury:
And are gone to praise God & his Priest &
King
Who make up a heaven of our misery.
William Blake
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Endless Time
Time is endless in thy hands, my lord.
There is none to count thy minutes.
Days and nights pass and ages bloom and fade like flowers.
Thou knowest how to wait.
Thy centuries follow each other perfecting a small wild flower.
We have no time to lose,
and having no time we must scramble for a chance.
We are too poor to be late.
And thus it is that time goes by
while I give it to every querulous man who claims it,
and thine altar is empty of all offerings to the last.
At the end of the day I hasten in fear lest thy gate be shut;
but I find that yet there is time.
Rabindranath Tagore
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If I Could Catch a Rainbow
If I could catch a rainbow, I would do it, just for you,
And, share with you, its beauty, on the days you're feeling blue.
If I could, I would build a mountain, you could call your very own.
A place to find serenity, a place just to be alone.
If I could, I would take your troubles, and toss them into the sea.
But, all these things, I'm finding, are impossible for me.
I cannot build a mountain, or catch a rainbow fair;
but, let me be, what I know best,
A Friend, who's always there.
I promise to defend you, should the occasion ever rise,
And, I promise to wipe away the tears,
which might stream from your weeping eyes.
Let me be the trusted Friend, the one that you know best.
I will never leave you, on that, you can surely rest.
Sandra Lewis Pringle
Friday, October 17, 2008
I haven't had a nap ever since I entered into college! Seriously!! I had a nice nap today after I got home. Aaahhh.. It was so comfy! (ha!my bed!) It was pouring again and what better time to sleep, rite? =) Thanks to Ed I got home before 4:30!!
When college started, I would take the train after class and all the club activities (about 5:30 nearly everyday) to Maluri station. Then walk all the way to pizza hut and wait for my mom to pick me. Mom's office is in Maluri, so I'll end up there everyday till 9 or sometimes 10 at night. This lasted throughout my entire sem! Then came 2nd sem.. hehe! Eunice has been sending me home quite often and plus Ed got a car! So bye-bye to those hours in the office! =p Love you both dearly for this XD
However... I got a headache attack now :( *sigh*
Feeling dizzy and random now..er..shall go for dinner..bye.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Love by Ivan Wong
Love, love, love,
Sweet love deep as the ocean,
Waves of love hugging the earth,
It is care,
Something we all share,
A choice, not a dare,
From my heart to my feet,
I can hear my heart beat,
True symphony of love,
A fragrance of perfumes,
Surrounding my entire body,
Something valuable with no price,
The sight of angels around me,
Flying to and fro,
Just a glance of heaven,
Whenever I see You!
Ivan Wong Hoc Mun , 6 Bestari
p/s: this is part of it as well...
Yes, you there. Come and read. You know you want to… (sweat*..so like Ed)
Just Read
Love is not easy to explain. We learn to love not only family and friends but even enemies. In my poem, you’ll be able to understand a message briefly. To the future year six students, we understand that you’ve grown a little but love isn’t a game. Focus on only your academics especially this year. Put all your emotions away. That includes being scared. I hope most of you would read, most importantly understand me (poem). Anyway, good luck on getting 5 A s and other important achievements. Remember to appreciate all your teachers for the last time. Ciao, my fellow chumps.
The one and only (handsome),
not only has he grown more mature, he's also vainer!
Ivan Wong Hoc Mun.
Ivan, when he was only 8
This is when he was only 9
wkakaka!
look at the height difference!
still far to go.. yea,we're super chubby cause of the 5 layers of clothes were wearing O.O
this is when he is 11!he went from fat to thin all of a sudden!
look at the height difference now~!
this is when he's 12 (this year) handsome di..
he used to look a lot like me, now he's Ed's exact photocopy!
Vainer too~
He's really sleeping by the way..
LOOK AT THE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE NOW!!! He's nearly as tall as me!!
This boy never ceases to amaze me! Pray that the Lord will guide you and hope that you'll grow to be wiser and more you each day! Btw.. where's my gamboy dear??
Wonderful Week (Tag)
What made you feel really frustrated/angry this week?
1) The OB nite planning! *sigh* I’m pretty frustrated the entire week cause of this. What happened to all the hotels!! No vacancy at all!? Gosh..
2) My mom. Had another argument with her again.*sigh* Then now, we’re laughing over some other matter. It’s good we can make up this fast but this is the 2nd consecutive week we argued. Maybe I’m becoming rebellious..?
3) Econs Test! X_X
4) The laundry!
5) The dishes!
6) My unhelpful brothers!!!! Yea..This is the part about siblings (esp., brothers!) I really hate!! Wanna strangle them for not helping around the house!
What made you feel really sad/depressed/down/blue this week?
1) Thought about a dear friend I had lost
2) The HK series I watched last night..
3) My grandma (dad’s side)
4) An article I read about a girl
What made you feel really tired this week?
1) College + Student Council…
2) Assignments O.o
3) Housework x_x
What made you feel like screaming your lungs at?
1) Same as the ones above..
What made you smile/laugh this week?
1) The e-mail I received from my best friend, Jia Rong. ^.^ so sweet of ya dear..miss ya!
2) The BRATs year end camp invitation letter that I received!WHEEE!! But too bad I can’t go…haizz..mom said no.. :( It’s in sepilok some more! All the adventure I’m gonna miss!!! Sob sob..
3) Student Council meeting, haha! Believe it or not, the meetings are really fun and most of the time you can hear us roaring with laughter! XD
4) Pranking Ms Melalyn and Ms Grace =p I pakat with Mr Rueben and Jennifer to prank them with the scary maze game. Well it wasn’t successful cause Ms Grace found out before even playing the game(Jen la!) and Ms Melalyn.. she was the hilarious one! She played the game and when the scary picture popped out, she laughed instead of screaming. So much for pranking them. :p
5) Shonna! She missed Lit class without knowing she did! XD
6) Kutuk (Mr)Rueben Day!!! Yea, me and Jennifer enjoy doing that to him.
7) Ed’s YKLS advertisement on Astro. He looked like a hamm sap lou!
8) Singing Mamma Mia / ABBA songs the entire day with Shonna and Rachel. Go watch Mamma Mia people!
What made you feel really happy this week?
1) Food! Glorious food!
2) Going to college
3) Hehe..my anime series was successfully downloaded!
4) My new ‘monkey bag’ (Kipling) from my aunt!
5) 3 new shirts from metrojaya! XD XD
6) The red bean ice cream I had yesterday~
7) 4 pairs of new shoes!!! Hahah!
What made you feel really excited this week?
1) Going home after class!
2) Watching my Anime! =p
3) Waiting for my food to arrive??
4) Friday!
5) Reading the RAGE article from Sharm bout the Community Service I did in Bethany Home.
6) Replying my best friends e-mail!
What made you feel really inspired this week?
1) The poem we did in Lit class yesterday, the Caged Bird. Felt like it relates to me and it was touching in a way. It comforted me and it was very motivating as well. How timely it came! Funny how lit can relate to real life. =)
2) Ms Betsy’s investment plan!! Haha!
3) God. He keeps inspiring me daily.. Thank you Lord!
Lastly, what made your week complete?
1) God
2) His plans for me
3) His Love for me
4) His blessings in my life
5) My family
6) My friends
What more can I ask for?? =)
Thank you Lord for blessing me with yet another week full of ups and downs that will only make me grow more in you. Thank you again for giving me your Love that is beyond measure. Thank you for all the people in my life that made it a great adventure and thank you for calling me your daughter. Amen!
i don't tag anyone for this...you could do it if you feel like it. =)
Friday, October 10, 2008
Long Overdue Tag =p
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how they relate to the questions.
5. Tag at least 5 people.
1. How are you feeling today?
More Time by Need To Breathe (weird name..)
Haha!Yea..I want more time!wish I could stop time..
2. If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say?
Carousel - Laura Izibor
Haha..!really makes no sense, but the lyrics can suit
3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Last Train Home - Ryan Star
Oh yeah!be my last train home =) How timely..
4. Will you get far in life?
High - Lighthouse Family
yup!definitely really high!
5. What do you think about very often?
Miss Invisible - Marie Digby
Hmm..kinda true, sometimes I do feel like I'm invisible, but sometimes it's ok to be alone =)
6. What is 2 + 2?
Transformation - Bulgarian Women Choir (Brother Bear movie)
Haha!
7. What's your best friend's theme song?
My Way - Frank Sinatra
Not sure what's her fav now but this works too I guess!
8. What is the story of your life?
Like A Star - Corinne Bailey Rae
aw..sweet..hope it is XD
9. What is/was your high school like?
Way Back Into Love - Hugh Grant & Haley Bennet (Music & Lyrics movie)
no comment~
10. What is your motto?
Tennessee Waltz - Les Paul & Mary Ford
Haha!absolutely senseless...but would love to have my life to be like a beautiful song~
11. What’s the best thing about your friends?
You Must love Me - Brook White
Amen!haha!yea..they are the ones that definitely loves me for who I am~
12. What do you think of the person you like?
Dreamer - Bethany Dillon
Yea, he totally is one. =)
13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Two Beds And One Coffee Machine - Savage Garden
NO!hmm..maybe a blanket and a bed instead?? =p
14. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
When The Stars Go Blue - Tyler Hilton & Bethany Joy Lenz
=) ~
15. Describe your grandparents.
Think Of Me - David Archuleta
Yea, I think they do wish to be often thought of and not forgotten. =) I love my grandma a lot cause she was the one who took care of me since day 1 of my arrival on planet Earth (my mom was too busy..:p) Will pray for health, see ya tomorrow Leng Lui!
16. How's your life going?
Only Hope - Switchfoot
Hopeful!
17. What is your biggest fear?
Don't Let The Sun Go Down On Me - Clay Aiken
Yeah!no need for explanation, the title says it all!
18. What will be played at your funeral?
I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
maybe they should change it to "i'm dead" instead..
19. What is your hobby/interest?
The Day You Went Away - M2M
HAR!?
20. Will you have a happy life?
Breakable - Ingrid Michaelson
Yes, I'm fragile and breakable but I will only fall and stand up stronger again. Not going down without a fight! I will have a happy life! Guide me Lord!
21. What do your friends really think of you?
Anyway - Martina McBride
Yea, anyway they might want to think of me, go right ahead, I'm me and no one's opinion of me matters more than my Father Heaven's opinion.
22. Do people secretly lust after you?
My World - Avril Lavinge
???
23. How can you make yourself happy?
Unwritten - Natasha Beddingfield
=) the lyrics says it all
24. Will you ever have children?
Never An Absolution - James Horner (Titanic OST)
HAHA!i love kids..might have gua
25. What song would you strip to?
Us - Regina Spektor
no comment~
26. What does your mom think of you?
Leave, Get Out! - Jojo
*blinks* That's the exact opposite..
27. What do you think of your parents?
Butterfly Kisses - Bob Carlisle
Aw..I can picture my dad on my wedding day. =) so sweet~
28. What is your deep, dark secret?
How Deep The Father's Love For Us - Various
it's no secret.. hope you would get to know my awesome saviour one day!
29. What is your enemy's theme song?
Miracles Happen - Myra
*sweat* funny~
30. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Greatest Story Ever Told - Oliver James
Perfect!if my husband sings this to me.. I'll be speechless and in tears too. =)
Who cares about rules even if it's golden?
Jia Rong
Ai Jane
Justine
Felicia
Rachel
Jee Wen
Krystal
Ms Angeline
Ms Mel
and anyone who feels like doing it is welcome to! :)
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Again, such events means having holidays to me =p But, I do appreaciate the 'Rendang Season' being around! Went for 2 house visitation today and ate loads..eating some more tommorow! Crap! Gonna put on weight... O.o
Oh yea... Something happened yesterday.. hmm.. I'm not sure who but someone left a present in my bag without my knowledge. It's a Body Glove purse and it's not cheap! yeap...I know cause the price tag was there =p I'm not trashing the person or anything but erm..who are you anyway?? I'm cracking my brain here ya know!?
My mom and Ed found out cause they found the purse on my table.. and so their reaction was...
Mom: Return it! No reason to receive it since you don't know the sender and who is it anyway??
Me: I want too know to mom....
Ed: For heaven sakes you two!!!! Since it's for you, just take it! Don't break the poor fellows heart.... You know what's called being romantic???
Me: ...
Mom: *laughs madly* Why all the guys that likes you tends to be so secretive??
Ed: No guts?? So who is it???? Handsome or not??? *grins*
Me: Change subject.............
This is why I try so hard not to let Ed find out bout such things..he'll tease me to my grave!
Oh well... Happy holidays people~!
Cat~
Cat: Aw..come on! *tries to grab my chicken away* Just a bit won't hurt!
So I did give it one piece in the end..haha.. couldn't resist those eyes.. =p
Cat: Fine..be stingy...*runs over to the bin* Hmm...what's in here? Crap! I thought the sign said unfinished food...? Liar!
seeing that it can't find any food..it changed it's mind to something else...
Cat: Forget bout eating...ur shoe looks comfy enough to sleep on! =) *purr..purr* Hey!it's good for scrathing too!
Me: What?? *sweat*
great..now I'm a pillow as well..sigh..
Cat: What'cha looking at?? *glares* What happened to sharing is caring eh?? Hold still! My head needs scratching u noe...
Haha...yea..lame post...but seriously this was what happened except for the talking part..purely made up but the cat could possibly be thinking of something like that.. you'll never know! =p